TsukikoSCG
Status: "Sometimes before it gets better the darkness gets bigger - The person that youd take a bullet for is behind the trigger." - Fall Out Boy
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*POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING*My life has gone completely haywire recently. I had a friend of 10 years come to stay for 2 nights on the 19th of June, and honestly she kept me going after the big...
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I made myself have two meals today! It was really difficult and I ended up cooking my tea at 10pm and having a mcdonalds lunch at like 4 in the afternoon... but I'm hoping that if I drink enough...
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At my last therapy session, I had written a letter to myself as an 11 year old and then had to read it out, discuss it, and then respond to the words as I would have when I was 11. There was a bit of...
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Today was one of the hardest therapy sessions I'd ever had. For my homework, I'd had to write a letter to myself when I was 11 years old. By the end of it, I was trapped in a silent scream, crying...
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The time it takes for me to want to kill myself each time i feel it is getting shorter.The thoughts are getting more frequent, more close together, more rationalised.It starts to make an awful lot of...
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So recently I've been struggling to function day to day because of all kinds of stuff: Therapy, Exams, Personal Problems, Health Problems - all the usual. Then I lost a friend. The arguement has...
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Why do all advice lines have to be such robots?I'm telling you that I'm thinking about hurting myself, that all my brain is telling me to do is kill myself.Speak to me like a person! Yes I'm sure...
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It's exam period at the moment, so like any student in their final year of university I'm under immense amounts of pressure as is expected. But it seems like I'm finding it a lot harder than almost...
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My life has seemed not worth living for quite some time now.Yes there are things and people that make me happy and smile, but often these are tainted, or out of reach or an exercise in futility so...
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All I do now is sit in my room and think about killing myself.No-one cares. I hate myself so much and it's getting worse daily. The big things are always going to be there, that I'll never be...
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I'm not sure how much longer I can do this for before I, at the very least, fuck things up permanently.If I don't kill myself, I know my life is only going to get worse because I can't pull myself...
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I'd like to talk for a moment about the solidarity I share with my older sister. We just spoke for a few hours about everything from opposite ends of the country and we laughed and talked and then...
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I don't know if I will ever get what I need to be happy.I'm all alone now. I had to let my boyfriend go to set him free... to let him have everything he wants from life. Everything I can't give....
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I think about dying sometimes.I know that I won't, but I sometimes think about it when I feel this way.It's crushing. This sense that I am about to lose everything and won't be able to handle it,...
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Seriously, if you could be upset by anything I have written about my life, don't read this. the last thing I want is to hurt or upset someone else. I just... I really needed to put this out in the...
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