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- 26.3.13. It's almost here, the date she was born and died. It still feels like just yesturday. I am only just starting to think with a clear head again. Finding messages and emails of sympathy I must have read at some stage but don't remember at...
- It's been 7 months since Layla died. I thought maybe I should try cutting down the antidepressance and see how I go. I was on 200mg Zoloft and cut back to 100mg. I started getting suicidal thoughts again and started eating and wanting to drink...
- So i dont no if this is to much info but i want to no if anyone went through this.Since we lost our baby in march my hubby and I have had sex 5 or 6 time. That's once a month. Before hand we were 2-3 a week. When ever I mention it to him he runs. I...
- I keep having reoccurring night mares that I have a baby but I can't get to her, or someone takes her away , or everyone just ignores her. Last nights dream had my deciessed Nanna in it, she took my baby away and told me to get used to it. Does...
- So I thought rainbow was on its way, but turns out that it's not. For hubby I feel relief ( as he doesn't want one, he thinks it's betraying Layla our angel) but I feel disappointment. I really wanted another life inside me and another child to be...
- Hi. I lost my baby girl Layla at 39 weeks on 26 march 2012 due to an undetected infection. I have two living children 3 and 6. I always wanted three. I have three now but I'm still feeling the maternal nagging feeling that I need another one to...
- I think I've come a long way in a short time. In the 10-12 weeks after my baby girls still birth I was drinking a bottle of wine within a half hour period and taking sleeping pills or anything that would make me drowsy so I'd just sleep the whole...
- Hi I'm new here. I'm glad I found this group. I had a baby girl who was still born in march. I really need to fill my need of having a baby, just to breast feed would be a dream. I do have two children with me, but I've still got a need to fill and...
- I just keep feeling alone. This is the worst thing any one has to go through. I don't no how to fill the this emptyness. There is such a big part of me missing and I don't no how if I'll ever find it. I never feel her presents anywhere, why? I need...
- After my baby girl Layla died my depression has become really bad. I'm very irritable and I'm always yelling at every one at home. I've recently had my depression assets and am now taking a higher dose of meds. All I think about is having a baby but...
- When you feel so down and out what do you do. For a long time I felt suicidal and all I wanted to do is drink to numb the pain. I've stopped. It I still get those thoughts and urges. I keep my self safe for my earth children but when the week end...
- When you feel so down and out what do you do. For a long time I felt suicidal and all I wanted to do is drink to numb the pain. I've stopped. It I still get those thoughts and urges. I keep my self safe for my earth children but when the week end...
- After loosing Layla about four months ago now I still have the maternal side of me nagging for a baby. I want one now. Am I feeling this way just because I've just been through an entire pregnancy with out the expected out come? Or should I go with...
- I have put away the cot today. It's now out in the shed and no longer in my room. I had a bag of my baby's belongings , jump suit, singlet, bunny rug etc, sitting beside my bed. They are all in a pretty bag until my freind finishes make her memories...
- I was just going through some things and came across al the sympathy cards I received from people the days following my babies birth. At the time of receiving these cards I felt like tearing them to peaces. All I want was at least one card...