Muji, you know you can borrow a bucket of roar and take a box of purrrrrr with you to use as needed. THe puma's got your back, and will keep you in prayer with a candle with your name written on it!

Muji you always have my support. I'm glad you asked for support and a reminder of the support you have from me and others. I know you will do fine but I will you keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Remember to take all the hugs with you in your pocket. I will be with you in spirit. XO

May you reduce those memories to mere stains on the carpet; forever as ugly as sin, but something you can walk over without tripping.

I am simmering in the muggy Illinois heat and surfing the weather forecasts in the Southern hemisphere for cooling thoughts. Temps in the 50s in Montevideo today. . . Remember to pack sweaters.

Easy does it, muji. You can do this.

Muji, you are going to be just fine. Just roll with what you are going through right now. It's only natural to be happy as well as apprehensive to go back home. Remember what happened so long ago is now over. You know where to take all of that stuff and leave it forever. Children playing and enjoying each other. Couples holding hands. People enjoying life. That's what I want you to see. JOY!!!

You have my support too,Muji! Personally, I am learning that my flashbacks/triggers are indeed preparing me to face many fears in the future, so I need not fear them anymore as there is something for me to learn from them in order to move forward on my healing journey, which sounds like what your flashbacks are doing for you now also so that you can enjoy the adventure : ) Knowing what you need to do to take care of yourself in the here and now and as a means of preparation is a good thing : )

I hope it's a great trip, Muji !!!

Thanks, David! I'm a little more rested today, and therefore more serene about it. After all, it's a vacation for me, too, and I haven't had one this year except for my July 4th weekend. I taught summer school and that kept me busy. It ends tomorrow. Yay!

we are right behind you my friend courage hugs min threw friendship courage is born hugs min

Thanks, min. I was telling Leo and 52 via private message that I was kind of wondering whether I'd be up to it, really, until yesterday.

Suddenly, I guess I got a good night's sleep and got up on the right side of the bed and realized it's a vacation trip and I can just enjoy it. Geez, how silly. So I leave in a week from today and I'm looking forward to it. It's an 18 hour trip, what with layovers in a couple of airports along the way, but I can handle that, too.

Wow, was I ever getting whiny over here. Glad I snapped out of it, and thanks for being there for me.

I was talking to Lilly and 52, and I said that I felt really GOOD on Monday. Then today I woke up feeling like I'd been through 15 rounds of heavyweight boxing and lost. Aches all over. The good news was that it was my last day teaching summer school at the college, so I dragged my creaking bones over there and had a nice time saying goodbye to some very nice summer school students I had.

Then I dragged my aching bones back to my lair, and dropped them on the couch. What's up with how run down a person can get from Monday to Wednesday, huh?

I'm going to be sure to get good extra sleep the next 2 nights to see if I can beat this. After the weekend, Tuesday, I set off on the big trip which will be 18 hours of planes and airports from Dulles in DC to Carrasco airport in Montevideo. I can do it achy and exhausted, as I've done it before, but I'd much rather be rested and chipper.

here for you always MUJ you can get through this praying for you

Hey, Lilly, that's a great idea. Power naps and Montevideo videos. (See how I did that word play there?) :-)

The first line of this one translates:
"I come from a place lost in the south of the globe
...Montevideo!"

Montevideo - Tabare Cardozo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AP5OWCatV78

Thanks!