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went to lunch with girl friend from church had a good x we talked for hours and the food was good.  pauls on the way to where my mom is so stoped  in .  he wanted to go with me to see mom that...

paul goes for the jugular when he fighes with me or anyone if you up the anty he ups it more.  since being in the hospital all i wanted was a friend and a lover and a christian husband.  prognosses...

signed papers to cancell divorce to night, feeling numb hope not turning nto ice pricenes again do not have energy or time to go to hell and back or be insane again last divorce ended in hospital and...

got massage and ate dinner with paul, life is good.  paul set a few boundries, lisoned to what paul had to say then i talked. this is how it is suposed to be

had a very good week end saw mom christmas and stayed wirh paul over weekrnd. got to get table back in here so can wright im on the floor typing and my back is hurtig a lot

paul called dec ember 3  thats our aniversy; me made up i need a support group seperate from paul just cant trust him to support me mentaly or physicaly.  so i go to his house friday sat and sunday...

put up christmas tree and decorated the house a little life is good.  tomorrow is sons b-day  all is well. talked to paul yesterday and he hung up on me, he is extreamy sensitive. each x talk to...

son is home food taste good life  is better because he is home. go to the club house almost every day, learning to socialize a lot better learning to get along with people better.  this is good...

went to nieces house for t g prayed befor going gods will not mine.  mind was not closed when arriving at nieces house,  i was open and warm and everyone responded warmly to me had a wonderful...

things i am grateful for, mom sister brother and especialy son david because no matter how much i push him away he still comes back. i appriciate friends staying with me while married

rededicated life to God today, gave up not putting God first ,putting God first in my life, putting God first in my marriage, God first in relationship with son and family God first in relationships...

hey life is good spent day with an old friend feel closer to gGOD, peaceful , all things work for the good for them who love the lord. God has been pointing things out to me, like im not broken dont...

am going to legal aid tuesday, son will not leave home he is 41 in 17 days. have been supporting him for 11 years. he either says he has worked and was not paid enough or says he is piece of shit, ...

paul is a wonderful person and i love him but he is severly codependant and controled me. i noticed my personality changing and accepting poor treatment. paul was putting more into the relationship...

off the pity pot, talked to paul it was  almost enjoyable he is doing good, goes for eye surgery wed, bruce will take him; bruce is a positive person and that count for a lot. just said a prayer for...