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Paul says im  too sexy, jeaules, too angry today. ok nothing he didnt know before we were married.  except the anger we never had an arugument only discussions, until we were married then it was...

TOOK CRYSTAL IN DAVID PLAYS VIDEO GAMES.  REFUSES TO WORK I KEEP HIM AND CRYSTAL FROM PAYING THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS.  IT HURTS TOO MUCH FOR THAT .IZ

wen to bed early cant sleep miss paul havent hurd how he is my phone is out i hurt.  paul didnt look good the last time i saw him,afraid he isnt alright.  afraid too call know he is hurting too...

just when i feel safe and confortable .paul has a car axident and the car has to be towed.  at first i felt not responsible for this(paul blames me for blood clots, ulcers most anything when i yell...

i know alot of men and a few women have abused me.  today i do not give me permission to cut deeply anyone especialy the ones i love just because im angry, everyone makes mistakes.  also i know i...

we have make up sex i go home  then i call next daybecause i want to live in my house for awhil to change my behavior i yell too much practicing on son not to yell and not controling.( when i call...

WENT TO MTG LAST NIGHT HAD A VERY GOOD TIME.  PAUL CALLED WE MADE UP LIFE IS GOOD.

am  flaming codependant.  husband asked me if we were soulemates realy didnt know  ,loved him liked him an tried to fix him and his son.  when i had more problems then he did wrighting this im...

today know im chaseing paul and this makes him run  from me.  also dont realy know him, have cried the most in my total life  in the last 5 yrs.  i tell him everything about me and he very little...

applied for job today( mental health) CLUB HOUSE.  TALKED TO PAUL HES STILL MAD MAY GO FOR ME LIVING IN MY HOUSE AND HIM LIVING IN HIS.  WOULD LIKE TO WRIGHT LETTERS SO I CAN GET TO KNOW HIM...

woke up midnight even in sleep try to find answers the only answer is to live life to the best of my abiltityy what ever that is.  got my dream my goal didnt know what to do with it.  now it is...

hey just noticed the DATE IT MY DADS BIRTHDAY AND HANKS,  LOVE BOTH BUT THEY ARE IN HEAVEN NOW. MISS THEM

Have finaly taken responsibility for my actions.  why im in hesperia insted of being with husband. Became fearful of loosing him for 8 hrs .  YELLED AT HIM FOR 3 hrs tried to make up for 1hr and...

sunday went to church , people were friendly.  im bored need something to do.  cooked lunch for the guys.  david cleaned the kitchen we just painted the great room.  the house is fairly clean. ...

feel happy, excited.  went to nami mtg for 1st time.  old boss  from 1976 was there as guest from  mental health what a small world, told me about another who works right here  different county...