am going to legal aid tuesday, son will not leave home he is 41 in 17 days. have been supporting him for 11 years. he either says he has worked and was not paid enough or says he is piece of shit,  what ever works and is going to councling he has lied for past 10 years about some job or bussiness always in the futher nothing has happened ever. have rentaals and he helps with them onece or twice a year  hope i can stay sane for 2 mo  and not weaken.  sister call me selfish crazzy b@## because im not seeing my mom who is 90 enough.  i didnt go to moms 90th birthday because afraid of the fires afraid to leave home though house would burn up. it is hard for me to see mom when sister is angry every time i call to see how my mom is. sister put herself on as the only person in the trust cuting brother and me off. usely think of self as survivor but today feel like victim. need to grow some balls in a hurry life is going to s##t in a hurry. iv stuck my head in the sand long enough i see things clearly now. very calm  feel nothing is wrong with me or others am equal to everone and vice versa. david is not better than me and dosent deserve everything i worked for he is not entittled to it.