tryingtobestrong5
Status: Haven't been active enough lately, but if anyone needs anything I still check my messages almost every day... hope everyone's alright :)
Mood:
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Acceptance is a huge deal for me. I don't mean that I try to be like everyone else so they can like me. I'm talking about being accepted for who I am. It feels like my family never understood me...
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So I don't know if I should start with the positive or negative... I want to end with a positive to end feeling somewhat optimistic. But to get to the negative I must talk about the positive....
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Ok so for English we had to write a short story for a midterm. I used a short story I already had, and the story I used was like an Edgar Allen Poe kind of dark story that I started last year and...
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So I'm getting way better. It's been a few weeks since I've been able to walk, and my surgery did really affect my mood but it seems I'm recovering from it. Finally!!! My suicidal thoughts were...
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Well just as the title says, I had a bad day. An awful terrible day. But yesterday I had a good mood swing which was probably just preparing me for today. I woke up sad, I couldn't see my boyfriend...
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How many times will it come back? Why won't it just disappear? To cause me pain is its goal, to drive me insane is an extra that keeps it going. I have given up on trying to stop it, because it seems...
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I always knew I would one night wake up screaming. I thought it was going to be last night. I had a nightmare that my mom had called my little brother to go to the kitchen to eat and she woke my up...
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Ugh I just wrote a whole lot and it deleted ._. well you can tell what this journal is about, me being scared for school. I've been feeling alone lately and I can blame that on my situation and my...
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Time is all I have while I'm in this situation so thank you for giving me something to do. I feel like I always need to be strong because I want to be the person people look up to. I've always helped...
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A few nights ago I cut again. Then the night after that again. I don't find it much of a big deal. I was stressing because I found out I need to have a surgery and my cousin had told me he had a...
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I haven't written a journal that isn't updating a goal so I guess that's why I'm writing this. Um...life. It goes on. I might feel like it's over, but even after I'm gone it'll still go on. I feel...
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Well I'm feeling somewhat better. I just feel like I have such a boring life but it's better than wanting to end it. I'm not feeling like a burden that much anymore so that's good, so that's that.
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So I feel like a better daughter because when I was given permission to be with a friend, I didn't lie to my parents about where I was. I didn't lie about who I was with, or what we were doing. So I...
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Well I'm actually trying. I hate that word so much "trying" but there are people here I really want to be with and those are the people that keep me going. Even now when I feel like I'm losing...
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