My Fear For School

Ugh I just wrote a whole lot and it deleted ._. well you can tell what this journal is about, me being scared for school. I've been feeling alone lately and I can blame that on my situation and my self-esteem. I had visitors yesterday and some today but it didn't shake off this lonely feeling. I was thinking about my circle of fiends and the 2 people I would say are my best friends, aren't really my best friends. We've distanced from each other since high school. They have other friends and I have my boyfriend. I stopped hanging out with a group because they told me they didn't want me around them and my best friend stayed with them because they like her. A few months later I got my boyfriend but I'm realizing that he's a senior and I'm a sophomore. He's going to graduate this year and I have 2 more years of high school. I have no clue who I'm going to spend those two years with. My one "best" friend? I'm just realizing how alone I am. And because of that I'm scared for school now.