Life ._.

I haven't written a journal that isn't updating a goal so I guess that's why I'm writing this. Um...life. It goes on. I might feel like it's over, but even after I'm gone it'll still go on. I feel like life betrayed me, like it's completely against me. Shouldn't my thoughts be in my favor? Shouldn't my mind think of ways to help me in situations instead of telling me to give up and crawl into my bed and pretend to be ok? Fight or flight? Flight. Only in things I know I'm confident in I'll fight. I'm just a coward. I'm just tired of trying. I know life will always get me down again. I know I'm not the only one, but I'm tired of being called lazy when really I'm just tired of life. Always tired of life. Always hurting and always wishing I could just sleep for such a long time and that when I get up everything is ok. But it won't. No matter how much I sleep in, it doesn't change. I'm tired of life. But I know I can't just let go. So I'm holding on :/