Tornado

So little background,, 
Yes I really am a Kansas girl, and I live in tornado alley.
H is originally from Joplin, Missouri.
Tow was h's gf the summer he was 14 and she 15.  Lost his virginity to her, she moved away after the summer to small town 20 miles from Joplin.   He never saw her again.  
 I met hubby when I moved to Joplin for a short stint.  Drug h back to kansas w me.  Few yrs later we moved back to Joplin for couple years for a job,, my youngest was born there, moved back to ks again when she 2. 
Fast forward, May 22, 2011, massive f5 tornado wipes out half of Joplin.  We along with everyone else are heartbroken.  We have family and friends there.
Also side note, May 22 is my mom's birthday, may 22, 2011 was her first bday since she had passed away,,, so was rough day anyway before 5pm when the tornado hit.
We endlessly watched the news broadcasts for weeks.  I saved the newspapers.  
June 14, I take the kids,along with my sisters and brother and their families to St. Louis, with my stepdad, to visit step siblings who all live in st. Louis.  Stepdad relocating to cincinatti from New Mexico(where he n mom lived) for a new job.  So big summer hoorah with all the grandkids before he's bogged down w work, cuz is a year long fellowship.  H stays home because of work, and was short notice trip.  Anyway, we go through Joplin on way to st. louis.  I drive around all the old places we used to go,,, most not there, just piles of rubble.  I call H crying about how horrible it is,,,etc.  H in meantime has been looking at devestation online.   he starts online chatting with old school friends talking about all the devestation and lost lives.  Tow was on the site.  I believe it really did start innocently enough,, lots of people were on, upset, etc.  But it progressed to sex chat, then he went to see her one time Aug 21 and it became physical.   dday/ where he basically ratted himself out, Nov.9. 
Now between May 22 and Nov. 9, we have watched many documentaries, updates etc on Joplin and recovery efforts etc.  Now there hasnt been much about it recently,, hadnt thought about it too much. 
Last night, I switched over to the weather channel to see forecast for today, and they had program on, "The Year Of The Tornado"  and as I'm waiting on local forecast to load(satelite) they start talking about Joplin.
Trigger. Trigger. oh damn, more like looking down a double barrel shotgun. 
Now previously I had thought myself lucky because A didn't take place over a holiday, anniversary, anything like that, they started chatting June 14 and dday Nov. 9. 
I realize how wrong that is,, now forever May 22, my mom's bday, the killer tornado, and the entrance of tow, all rolled into one.