malibumark

I wrote this earlier this morning right after my hike. I've done all my chores for the day and I'm hunkering down.I'm not depressed, unhappy or lonely.My expectations of life are just changing I...

God willing this journal has value. I'm hoping this journal helps someoneand so I am trying to explain how I found that I was able to turnaround my feelings of futility, of senseless lack of value...

Another day!! Just drank an iced tea and waiting for work to start at 4a. Sending prayers and good wishes out there!!

Sending good wishes and prayers to everybody. I'll rest up and get to work in the morning.peace.

Work starts early today.Pumping myself up and sending a good morning out to you guys!

Hi guys!! Have a sunny start to the day!! About to start work in a moment!!peace,mark

I was spinning with negativity at work this morning whilethoughts about my last night's stay with my parents. I justfelt worried about being rejected as crazy how that sounds... It's so crazy how,...

Work will begin soon. Just getting ready for it.Have a good day you guys!

I came home from the Japanese garden.I didn't know you need a reservation to be admitted.So, I came home and made a reservation for next Monday..same time.I ate some lunch. Felt very empty personally...

I woke up feeling lazy and sad and without discipline. I made some coffee and went back to bed to drink it there. I tried to gather myself and felt powerless, hopeless, endless. Then I  thought on...

I wrote about my day in an email to my therapist earlier.And right now I feel just as though it's not healthy to livea solitary life. I may like to be alone, so I can gather my thoughtsand reflect....

in my keeping of routinesof keeping in touch with a truthor a standardI realize that when I don't have that in my dayor when I become lost in the day - I know I need to rediscovermy sense of path or...

I was doing well Friday and early Saturday morning.Though I kind of was gluttonous.I went to lunch with my Father and 2 family friends and it wasa nice and inspiring time. The 2 friends are young...