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- I am sick of the self doubt and pain. The emotions that come and won't stop. Even little things that I now have trouble doing. Why am I freezing, why can't I get some things done until it is too late?Two weeks ago I was to ship back some of the...
- My psychiatrist gave me prazosin for the nightmares yesterday. Last night was first dose. This morning I feel better than usually when I woke up but I did wake up once last night. I blame that on my body being programmed by the nightmares. But I...
- I am having a big problem with blaming myself and beating up on myself because of the damage my mother did. My counselor has been trying to work with me on it. I literally beat myself up emotionally and mentally to the point I actually do things...
- I went back to work on Dec. 26th. At first things were not going bad. I was getting things done, working was comfortable. Then I started to get more anxious, more jumpy. This is not only at work but at home. We had training for one client on...
- I sometimes get lost in thought- not like Einstein did but I create scenarios in my mind. These scenarios let me escape and be a different person- no exact person but different from me. I did this as a kid too. Problem is when I did this on the...
- I recently went back to work after being off for 3 months for my PTSD. I am feeling fairly stable with life but some things at work do trigger me. I had a bad experience with a client that made me have a flashback. It was not good. Now when that...
- This will be my 4th year without mom in my life at Christmas. The good thing is I have my aunt and uncle back in my life as well as my cousins. I did miss them since while on talking terms with mom I could no communicate with them. My mom had...
- Amazingly we humans are not alone in developing PTSD. It seems dogs used in combat situations can develop PTSD too. Here's an article on it. It seems at least they are getting some compassion in their treatment. I do not agree with putting them...
- If you read the narcissists and co-dependents article, you will understand the behavior I am talking about here. I have found myself repeating the pleasing, pampering, soothing behavior that my mother demanded with another narcissistic woman. She...
- I found this article on dreams that gives ideas on why some of us are plagued by nightmares with the PTSD. http://vitals.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/11/29/9074629-key-to-easing-a-painful-memory-dream-about-it
- I found this on the web. Pretty much describes my behavior toward my mother as a kid.http://www.alanrappoport.com/pdf/Co-Narcissism%20Article.pdf
- I always found it troubling that most societies demand you respect and care for your mother. It is like society sides with our narcissistic mothers. This bothered me for many years and still does. I avoid place where people may know my mother so...
- Just a heads up to everyone here. Either Sonny or Southerly is back on the PTSD support group and trying to goat people again. User name to look out for is toomuchinformation. I was just checking post and there is a really nasty one up. Please...
- The one person I know I hate from my childhood is Sam- the schizophrenic guy my mom married when I was 5. I always hated him from the beginning. My sister hated him too. She told me I never had to call him dad. I never did. Even while my mom...
- I am just curious. How many here had N moms? N dads? Or were both N's? For me it was mom. Wish we could do polls here.