Life

I don't know how to get this out but i am going to try. I want to live my life now. I don't want to sound self-centered but I want a life. I have given so much of myself to my family for so long that I don't know where to start looking. I want to help people live life. I want to help people see the goodness in life. Reading what i just wrote it sounds like i am still not doing any thing for myself but I see it differently. I want to become a part of some thing again. I want to see the trees in the forest. I want to smell the flowers. Where do i start?