Tawny26
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- i figured i would forget about the "rape" as the days pass. days turn into weeks, turn into months and then its almost a year. it seem like im remebering more instead of foregeting about the rape. i close my eyes and he is there thelling me just...
- i hate sleep. my dreams haunt me still and i hate it so much. for the past few nites i have these drems where he got out of jail and hes pissed at me, for turning him in. threantens my life. ooooo. i wish i could how i detest him. jerk. i can...
- im so angry, i mean how are u serious.the more that each day passes i hate the fact i met him.i sometimes beat up my self for what was happeining but looking back i had no clue. i feel responsible and strongly gulity for what happened, i jsut ant...
- I'm not sure if this belongs in ptsd but. How do you know if have a chemical imbalance ? I feel so blah 24/7 like I'm so pissed but for no reason. I'm nervous but not sure why. Easily irradiated, I just want to scream but I'm not sure that would...
- Instead of moving forward and stepping forward I feel like I'm stand stil .I just don't know. I have so much extra angre I like its hard for me to remain calm at times scent over the stupidest stuff. I have had a few nightmares come back I hate to...
- I have tried 3 times to call the sexual assault center in my area. But when the machine starts to say sexual assault I panic and hang up. I feel like such a chicken. Such a wuss ugh. It's even more nerve racking that I have to give a bit of a...
- Im moving forward baby stepsI feel numb.Im gonna Move past this This wont get the best of me.I sometimes can close my eyes and see the memories so well. I have to deal with this head on even i wish to ingore that wont help me at all.I strongly...
- my ex was alot of things nice, sincere and swee. was not any of them. He was a jerk and it makes me so angry it has took me so long to find out he was really a jerk. i wasted so much percious time on him thinking every word he said was sincere and...
- i hope my dreams arent to high i want to be someones everything. I want to be with someone will make me smile even when i dont realize i am.I want to be with someone who will bring me up and not pull me down. someone who will cherish me and my...
- i think i want to start going to a support group for rape in my area cause im noticing im not dealing with it bery well by myself. idk though. i mean this is helping me alot but i sometimes need face to face interaction. i llok at the website and...
- i have the day where im fine.ITs alwys in the back of my head no matter what i do i try ot ingore it happened but that gets me nwhere it just sets me back even onger and harder next time.My mother hasnt been supportive throuh the whole ordeal, i had...
- i have been doing so good for so long. i can tell im fallin backwards. i have friends they say setbacks will happen. i want to open up to them but. i cant . i wish i could leave it all in the past. i can remeber him so well i can see his face and...
- One day I want a healthy relationships, one I can be myself. I won't have to worry about telling him things about my past. I won't be afraid to end it dosent seem like it is going where I would like instead of feeling like maybe in time things...
- I'm scared to trust after my other relationships I don't want to get hurt but at the same token I don't want to end up alone either. How do I trust ? My other relationships weren't as healthy one to be exact the others were just immature . Any ideas...
- do u think sex is imorporant as is seems to be in reationships ?