im so angry, i mean how are u serious.the more that each day passes i hate the fact i met him.i sometimes beat up my self for what was happeining but looking back i had no clue. i feel responsible and strongly gulity for what happened, i jsut ant to tell him how i truly DETEST him i dont think it will ever happen though. it makes me so mad he sent me a letter after he was arrest and bailed out on facebook saying ooo how sorry he was nad he wish he could take eveything bsck but he knew he couldnt. wtf are you serious . i wanted to do alot more than write it took evetything in me not to just go his house and cut his nuts off (sorry), Its not really the fact he did what he did to me but he had SEX with my 13 yeear old sister, i hate the fact he did that to her, you can now my sister its like she holds a major gruge against me like maybe she feels i should have known and stoped it, but i had no idea,i try to talk to her and it like we arrent as close as we used to be at all. i lover her but i just dont know where to go from here. i will always try to protect her no matter she will always will be be my baby sister always like it or not.i wish i was the only one he hurt but thats not what happened.why us i dont understand that was it something we did, ill never understand how u can do that to a fucking child. I really dont care about my feelings i think thats a huge reason of why i push my feelings away i want to make sure she is ok so pretending im fine, maybe she talk, but i show her how i really feel she'll keep it bottled up to.idk i just dont know, i have my days where i feel ok and other where i feel nothing. sorry if is the wrong area. i just needed to get it off my chest.