ReginaPhalange
Status: My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.
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Thanks to everyone who sent me Christmas and New Year wishes, I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. I've taken a little break and feel quite ok right now. I've had a busy few weeks with family and...
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I finally slept!!!! After almost a week of little or no sleep I managed quite a bit last night. I feel better for it, I've had a nice lunch with uni friends, a few drinks and I'm off to take my...
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I was asked earlier what my mum had done for me to resent her so much, for me to not like her and be so angry at her. It's took a long time but I think I'm ready to tell my story.I was 5 when it...
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Have you ever wondered just how much we take people for granted?I don't really like my mother, we're not close and we don't really get on. But without her what sort of person would I be?Earlier this...
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I'm still worried about my lump, but thankfully it's Monday tomorrow and i can get it looked at. Other than that I've had a good weekend I went over to visit a friend who is also bipolar, we have...
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I found a lump last night. I'm so scared. I hardly slept all night. I've convinced myself it has to be bad, but then am I unlucky enough to have cancer 3 times?I've only been in remission since...
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Why do I always buy olives when I'm manic? It's like a little quirk I have. Have a manic episode buy olives. Today I bought garlic stuffed ones. They're nice.Doctors went ok, he sent me off to the...
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I hate myself right now. I'm manic, I know I am, I cant breathe properly. I'm bugging someone who has their own problems because I just need to keep going. I really want to stop but I can't. I just...
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This doesn't really have a title but I've been writing a lot of poetry lately. Most of it doesn't make sense but I wanted to write it downSitting on the sand alone and coldHugging my legs I look out...
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My kidney really hurts. It started to hurt a bit yesterday but now I have a full blown kidney infection. I just want them to take it away so that i don't feel the pain any more.
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I feel quite good today. I've done something for someone that I thought was really nice, and hopefully it'll help them progress further in life and make both of us happy.It was my son's nativity...
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I'm so annoyed at myself. I can't sleep. I tried swtiching off but no my mind want's to work overtime.Why now? I have to be up in a short while to take my son to school, then I have a friend who is...
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My dog died yesterday. Well I say my dog, she still lived at mums house. Noone bothered to tell me, mum said she was going the vets but I never heard anything after that. I called a bit later and...
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I got out, I went the gig and I enjoyed myself. I didn't manage the whole thing but I got there and that's the main thing. Today I am so cold, I can't even really feel my fingers. I'm putting my...
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I want to go to sleep and never wake up. One minute I was fine the next I hate myself, the world and everyone in it.I keep picking up knives and putting them down, do I really want to cut myself?
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