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My BIL is out of surgery and in recovery now.  Everything went well during the surgery so that is good and a huge relief.  Now comes the hard part of recovery.  I imagine he's going to be feeling...

I don't have much time to write because I need to get ready for my appointment...but I wanted to say that my BIL is in surgery now.  Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers that all goes...

So I ended up sleeping all evening and am kind of awake now that it's midnight.  Go figure.  I took a loxapine though so hopefully I'll be tired enough to sleep again soon.  I've got bad urges...

I'm feeling alright today.  Just tired and lazy.  Didn't take any loxapine last night so didn't fall asleep until around 8am this morning and slept until about noon.  Not a lot of room there for...

I can't handle this BPD crap anymore...it's pissing me off.  Why do I have to deal with this stuff....why do I have to be the one in my family to be so screwed up.  I can't handle the ups and downs...

Just posted some more Peggy's Cove photo's...these ones are from Feb 24.  No matter what I do though they upload in the wrong order.  I wish there was a reorganizer or something. I'm wide awake...

Things went pretty good today while I was out with mom.  We went to the thrift store, I spent money.  Then went to a liquidation store...spent more money.  Then went to supper...spent more...

mom's coming in and we're gonna go to the thrift shop.  I hope my anxiety doesn't get bad.  I want to get out but I keep getting panicky.  When I get back I want to try and make something.  Maybe...

This dumb anxiety makes me feel like cutting.  Trying not to give in.  Just feeling so edgy right now.  I dunno how much I can take.  I got appointment set with counselor for next Wednesday. ...

I'm still okay....not great, not lousy.  Still having some anxiety but I think it's getting better...haven't taken an Ativan since Sunday.  My psychiatrist said that the anxiety and some of the...

I think knowing that I have to stay at the condo is getting to me.  Not having the option to go out.  If I had my keys I'm sure I probably wouldn't care but being stuck here because I have no keys...

I just found out through a site (http://bpdokc.blogspot.com/), which led me to another site (http://www.neabpd.org/) that May is now officially Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month. ...

Ugghhh....doing alright but a little annoyed.  Mom and I went out for a coffee and a nice drive around the city and then stopped at a couple stores before she dropped me off for the night.  Well I...

Mark Schultz - Broken & Beautifulhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YHxkJ4cxk0Y There’s a businessman There’s a widowed wife There’s a smiling face with a shattered life There’s a teenage girl...

Hey, I actually made it to church today!  I'm so happy.  It was really good but I was yawning a lot during the service...couldn't seem to help it.  Saw a few people I knew from alpha, the course I...