ok...why is it that as soon as my sleep meds start to kick in my stomach decided to cramp up like never before and I've had to get up back and forth to the washroom.  Grrr.  I'm annoyed and taking a few minutes to write while waiting to see if things have settled down enough to attempt sleeping.  Things just aren't working as smoothly as they should be since my meds were increased...but it doesn't help that I have been neglecting to eat healthely foods that help keep things moving...so the combination means I've gotten a bit backed up.  Well...after tonight I think (I hope) it's safe to say I'm pretty cleaned out now.  LOL.  How lovely eh...oh well...that's what I get for eating a good sized helping of mac and cheese with flax seeds and spinach mixed in...and then drinking a large mug full of chocolate/strawberry milk....an unhappy tummy.  Okay...enough about that.   I need to be honest about something.  I know another reason why things are feeling rotten...I haven't been seeking the Lord the last couple days.  Well, I have been listening to praise music and thanks to the washroom visits have read about 4-5 devotionals....but I'm not seeking Him like I should be right now.  I haven't been putting on the armor...to be honest I wish it would just stay on...lol.  I'm tired of picking it up and putting it back on...again...and again...and again....guess that's what happens when it doesn't quite fit right but that means i have room to grow into it...anyhow...I am letting my feelings of being tired get in the way.  I haven't completely turned my back like last week...today/tonight....I am just feeling on the fence.  I'm sure I'll get back to it though...I always keep coming back to Him.   Well...think I'm going to go listen to some more music and lie down and see if my insides will let me sleep.  Blech.