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I'm feeling alright today.  Just tired and lazy.  Didn't take any loxapine last night so didn't fall asleep until around 8am this morning and slept until about noon.  Not a lot of room there for...

I can't handle this BPD crap anymore...it's pissing me off.  Why do I have to deal with this stuff....why do I have to be the one in my family to be so screwed up.  I can't handle the ups and downs...

Just posted some more Peggy's Cove photo's...these ones are from Feb 24.  No matter what I do though they upload in the wrong order.  I wish there was a reorganizer or something. I'm wide awake...

Things went pretty good today while I was out with mom.  We went to the thrift store, I spent money.  Then went to a liquidation store...spent more money.  Then went to supper...spent more...

mom's coming in and we're gonna go to the thrift shop.  I hope my anxiety doesn't get bad.  I want to get out but I keep getting panicky.  When I get back I want to try and make something.  Maybe...

This dumb anxiety makes me feel like cutting.  Trying not to give in.  Just feeling so edgy right now.  I dunno how much I can take.  I got appointment set with counselor for next Wednesday. ...

I'm still okay....not great, not lousy.  Still having some anxiety but I think it's getting better...haven't taken an Ativan since Sunday.  My psychiatrist said that the anxiety and some of the...

I'm at my parents.  Doing okay though still having moments of bad anxiety.  And some other weird moments were I'm not anxious but it feels like the ground is moving when I'm standing still.  It's...

I had a whole entry written up and it dissappeared on me.  :(  Anyway, I'm doing better today...still a little anxious but not nearly so bad as yesterday.   Thinking of going to my parents for...

I'm feeling really anxious again.  I only have one Ativan to get me through until I see my psychiatrist on Monday.  I'm not used to feeling so much anxiety.   I did go out for a walk today, went...

Made it out of bed and had breakfast.  Still feeling lots of anxiety so gave in and took an Ativan.  I'm thinking I might go for a walk for a bit and see if that helps.  I don't usually feel so...

I'm having a bit of a hard time still.  Not so bad as before I went into hospital but still a little off.  I'm feeling really anxious right now, but I don't want to take the Ativan yet.  I only...

I'm home again.  Was discharged this afternoon.  So good to be home again.  Feeling a lot better then I did a few days ago.  Still in a bit of pain from the way the muscles were spasming...which...

I had a reaction to all the loxapine in my system.  My jaw started spasming, then my tongue started doing it's own weird thing (i swear it was trying to rip out of my throat)...then it moved through...

there needs to be a face for molre than horrible....i just scrwed up my job shadow opportunity...and she tells me not to worry about it.,..but this was such a good opportunity...i'm so fucken pissed...