i don't know what to do...i can't seem to control my anger and it's getting totally directed at my roommate even though I'm not even there...i'm at my parents. I don't even realize i'm angry until after I send something and realize it's full of hateful and hurtful things. I don't want to keep doing it but it seems like the more I try to stop the worse mess I make of things. She doesn't deserve my abuse and I hate that I'm doing this. I'd rather be like the past were I'd enternalize it all and then abuse myself with cutting and overdosing but I don't even have a desire to do that much. Instead it's just getting directed at people it shouldn't be directed at and it makes me feel like even more of a screw up. I want to be like Jesus...not Satan...but I can't seem to get back on track.
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you can do it you just have to try really hard. I believe in you and I know soon it will get better for you. Focus on the good things... write your rommmate a letter tell her everything that you feel, don\'t send it, talk it over with someone when you are done and see how it feels to get things out with out hurting someone else. I don\'t know, I don\'t get angry very much so I\'m not to sure what I would do if I was faced with the same situation you were. I\'m here for you when you need me. Much love and hugs...
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The Final Gathering
God Became One of Us
Do You Doubt?
The Final Gathering
Posted: 21 Nov 2009 10:01 PM PST
Always be ready, because you dont know the day your Lord will come. Matthew 24:42
Every person who has ever lived will be present at that final gathering. Every heart that has ever beat. Every mouth that has ever spoken. On that day you will be surrounded by a sea of people. Rich, poor. Famous, unknown. Kings, bums. Brilliant, demented. All will be present. And all will be looking in one direction. All will be looking at him. Every human being.
The Son of Man will come again in his great glory (Matt.25:31).
You wont look at anyone else. No side glances to see what others are wearing. No whispers about new jewelry or comments about who is present. At this, the greatest gathering in history, you will have eyes for only onethe Son of Man. Wrapped in splendor. Shot through with radiance. Imploded with light and magnetic in power.
God Became One of Us
Posted: 20 Nov 2009 10:01 PM PST
I came to give lifelife in all its fullness. John 10:10
For thousands of years, God gave us his voice. Prior to Bethlehem, he gave his messengers, his teachers, his words. But in the manger, God gave us himself.
Many people have trouble with such a teaching. Islam sees God as one who sends others. He sends angels, prophets, books, but God is too holy to come to us himself. For God to touch the earth would be called a shirk. People who claim that God has touched the earth shirk Gods holiness; they make him gross. They blaspheme him.
Christianity, by contrast, celebrates Gods great descent. His nature does not trap him in heaven, but leads him to earth. In Gods great gospel, he not only sends, he becomes; he not only looks down, he lives among; he not only talks to us, he lives with us as one of us.
Do You Doubt?
Posted: 19 Nov 2009 10:01 PM PST
Anyone who doubts is like a wave in the sea, blown up and down by the wind. James 1:6
Doubt. Hes a nosy neighbor. Hes an unwanted visitor. Hes an obnoxious guest. Hell pester you. Hell irritate you. Hell criticize your judgment. Hell kick the stool out from under you and refuse to help you up. Hell tell you not to believe in the invisible yet offer no answer for the inadequacy of the visibleHis aim is not to convince you to confuse you. He doesnt offer solutions, he only raises questions.
Had any visits from this fellow lately? If you find yourself going to church in order to be saved and not because you are saved, then youve been listening to him. If you find yourself doubting God could forgive you for that, youve been sold some snake oil. If you are more cynical about Christians than sincere about Christ, the guess who came to dinner?
I suggest you put a lock on your gate. I suggest you post a Do Not Enter sign on your door.
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