Heidiclark

The more I'm able to be honest with myself about what I can and can't do, the more I get what I need from others who can help me. Tonight I admitted to Tom that I have a lot of weaknesses and...

Where do I even start?  There is just so much crap in my messed up life that I don't even know where and how to start talking about it.  I'm trying really hard to get myself to calm down and think...

I am lost in the world of trauma and food addiction. A lot of the time it seems like that's all there is in my life.  Those two things are making life a living hell for me and I don't know what to...

Don't really know what to say right now.  Something is wrong but I don't know what it is.  Feeling a little bit trapped and that's always hard  to deal with.  Things set me off and so often I...

Don't really know what to say right now.  Something is wrong but I don't know what it is.  Feeling a little bit trapped and that's always hard  to deal with.  Things set me off and so often I...

When I lost the music I lost myself.But now I get it again. I get the music. I can feel the music. I am found again.  

When I lost the music I lost myself.But now I get it again. I get the music. I can feel the music. I am found again.  

I am finally getting help for Josh.  And I am letting people see the real me rather than hiding it.  I'm not hiding it any more.  I have sent three notes to Pam Reed about my situation and about...

I am finally getting help for Josh.  And I am letting people see the real me rather than hiding it.  I'm not hiding it any more.  I have sent three notes to Pam Reed about my situation and about...

I guess I am moving out of the stuck place where I have been for so many years.  I can't belive that I was stuck for that long, but really and truly I just couldn't seem to help myself.  But then...

An ongoing issue for me that comes up again and again in my head is whether or not I should talk about my abuse.  It's hard to know if it would help or not.  For many many years I have worried...

I have to admit that I really thought getting out of bed would feel like a big relief to me.  I thought that since it was such a big issue for me that I would be celebrating every day that I could...

I actually helped Tom at the woodguild tonight.  I couldn't believe I was able to do that---especially after being in bed for two days straight.  Woopie! 

Wow, I am reading my old journal entries and realizing from them how much progress I really am making.  I am now doing hypnosis sessions on a regular basis on the phone with my mom.  She is coming...

Today was pretty good once I took my two Adderall.  It seems like I just have to have those two Adderall or there's little chance of my being able to think very well or get much done.  So I am just...