Just speaking my mind
I am lost in the world of trauma and food addiction. A lot of the time it seems like that's all there is in my life. Those two things are making life a living hell for me and I don't know what to do about either one of them. I've been posting all night long on both the depression and food addiction site, but nothing is helping. I can't deal with my trauma issues. I wouldn't even know how to talk about what happened to me. I have mixed feelings about my food addiction. I know it's going to kill me eventually and Josh will be alone with no mom and it will be my fault. I can't believe I don't love Josh enough to save myself from all of this. This makes me a terrible person. And yet I just can't stop. It's the only thing that takes the edge off of how horrible I feel.
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I know how it feels. I\'m slowly doing the same thing with alcohol. I know it\'s not good for me, but to be honest most of the time I don\'t really give a shit (sorry). Sometimes I think i\'m better off dead anyway. But I don\'t have anything to leave behind anyway, but I can\'t take it with me anyway so why should it matter.
And who would look after Josh if you weren\'t around? He might not understand why you\'re not there anymore. And whoever looks after him might not be as understanding. At least you have a reason to hang in there, I sadly do not
I\'m crying as i read this, Heidi. I am feeling, word for word exactly the same way. I know my weight and the associated health problems, are going to kill me, sooner than later. Today i\'m feeling really scared about it all. ((((((((hugs))))))))) honey.