No more hiding

Don't really know what to say right now.  Something is wrong but I don't know what it is.  Feeling a little bit trapped and that's always hard  to deal with.  Things set me off and so often I don't even know what it was that triggered me or what to do about it.  I can't always just talk myself through it, although right now I'm trying to talk myself through it.  It's all about loving myself and not judging myself.  And about bringing all the dark, ugly, hateful stuff in to the light so that it's not hidden and festering.  Not even sure why I'm writing right now, since I don't really know what to say right now.  Wow, I am really not normal. There is something wrong with me.