having a really hard night.

Where do I even start?  There is just so much crap in my messed up life that I don't even know where and how to start talking about it.  I'm trying really hard to get myself to calm down and think things through better.  Sometimes I think that talking about it makes it worse, but I'm not always sure.  And I'm afraid that if people knew how messed up I really am they would reject me and blame me for my issues.  I feel so much shame, guilt, sadness, anger, you name it, I'm feeling it.  

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Nobody here will judge you. We are all hurting. I came here as f\'d up as a soup sandwich and I let it all out. All the ugly embarrassing stuff I just bleed it out. Couldn\'t keep holding in the cancer causing thoughts! Let it out! Thats what this place is for. Thank G_d we have it. Sooooo Good to know we are NOT ALONE YAY!!!