ColleenF

It's official, I am shrinking. I am on day 12 of my diet and I have lost 16lbs so far. Living on 500 calories is very difficult. No cheating is killing me. I have promised myself that I will give...

I know better than this. No good can ever come of it but here I sit at 11:11pm. I should be in bed but I'm just sitting here thinking the "what ifs." What if I had sat the doctors down when I felt...

THIRTEEN POUNDS!!!I carry a large lunch bag/cooler everywhere I go. I live in the desert and it is ho here, I need water and I cannot eat out anymore so I have my whole day worth of food in it. In...

Oh my goodness! Nine pounds!

In a dream Jeff woke me up. He looked like a very pretty 16 year old girl and he sounded like himself. He told me that he is with 'her' and is alright. He told me that 'she' is his heart donor. Half...

Ok, so I was called into work today at 7:45am. That is not the bad part because my electric bill will be about $400. this month and I can use the overtime. The bad part is this. The person I'm...

SOMEBODY from DS got into facebook. (She knows who she is) On facebook I have found relatives that I never knew existed. This has been such a positive expirience for me that I want to share it. If...

This has been a good weekend. Today Jake watched a movie with me and that almost never happens. That was always Jeff's job. For the last 2 years Jeff's shoes have been empty but more and more lately...

FYI Sometimes I use my bra as a pocket. I'm sure many of us do. I put my cell phone in there so that it is close to my ear and I cannot hear it in my purse. My friend Terry, who has breast cancer...

When Jeff was in middle school he wrote a very long short story and turned it in as an English assignment. The story was about a vampire who had to feast on his mother because she was the last mortal...

My little brother's wife has cancer. Lymphatic melanoma. 3 more inoperable tumors have now been found. She lives in Michigan and has to go to Washington DC for testing to see if she qualifies for a...

I love you all so much. Thank you for being here. My emails are back.

Let me start by saying that I miss you all greatly. I am still not receiving emails. I'm working on it. I miss Jeff very much right now. Sometimes I can feel him near me but I have not felt him for...

I have not been recieving emails again. I hate this. I need you all.