ColleenF

This is so funny. I cannot believe I'm really gonna tell you this. Here goes...I wet the bed last night. I hurt so bad that I took two percs and went to sleep. I told the hubby that if I was awake in...

I am sorry, I cannot do this tonight. The stone is biting me from the inside trying to get out. I'm pissing blood and just want to go to sleep.

I really want to take an ice pick to this kidney stone. It would feel better, I'm sure. All I have to take is percocet and they are just too strong for me, I get too high and it is embarrassing....

 I woke this morning with thoughts of Jeff after transplant and the stupid resident that didn't bother to call me when my son slipped into a coma. I woke that night with chest pain from a dream of...

  I was having some guilt thoughts last night. AfterJeff's heart transplant he was very weak. He had three surgeries in one day. When they finally got him off the ventillator he was very, very weak....

I woke this morning from a dream about Jeff. A bad one. He sneaked into my grandson (the bun is not even in that oven yet) Mom died in childbirth and the baby (Jeff) still had the same heart ailment...

Thank you God for letting me be Jeffrey's mom. It didn't last long enough but it sure was FUN!!!

Things have calmed down a bit. Still have not spoken to the kids but the hubby is being nice. I'm still just staying in my room. I need to do my DS thing, don't bother me goes along way. Thank you...

Tomorrow would have been Jeff's 28th birthday. I will be in Prescott Valley with my mom again and my sons are staying home. I don't know if I can do it again.

Barbara sent him and HE CAME!!!  Thank you Barbara. When I was coming to yesterday after surgery I told Jeff that I loved him. The nurse thought I was talking to her. I let her. Hehehehe!!! Now she...

My family is here! I love them all so much already! More later. Must sleep now.

All is good in kitty land! My cats can no longer scratch the furniture. Notone single scratch to a human!!! Yeah!!! My new family will arrive November 6th. I have been talking to them on the phone...

Have you noticed that I am not around much lately? I hate that no internet at work thing. I do want to let you know that I am alright. That's all. 

I had a wonderful dream about Jeff last night. He was showing me what he looks like in Heavan. BEAUTIFUL!!!I bought the SoftPaws today to glue to my cat's claws so they will not tear up their foster...

I don't know if I want my step son to move in. I don't know if I want his girlfriend here. I don't know if I want to live with a baby again. I don''t knowif I will like these peopke or ifthey will...