Ok, so the peaceful high is gone. It sure was fun while it lasted. I spent some time alone today. Shopping, doing housework and watching tv. For the first time in almost 4months I was able to handle it alright. See now, I was doing just fine when I started writing this, now here come the tears. What the hell.   I hurt my back cleaning bathtubs today. No wonder it takes an act of congress to get me to do it. I wish I was rich, I'd pay someone big money to do it for me.   Love you all, Colleen.