Earlier tonight I was standing outside of my office waiting for my husband to pick me up when all of a sudden I felt this wonderful peaceful feeling. It was so intense it almost made me cry of happiness. My next thought was of how wonderful and fortunate I am to have been blessed with the opportunity to be this person's mother. I smiled so big and looked up to the sky and said hi to Jeff. I heard him in my mind say "hi, put the cigarette out". I did. I didn't want to, but I did. Always the pessimist, I looked around for the bomb to drop, you know, the tears to start but they did not come. I was filled to the top with peace and joy.

   I love you all, Colleen.