DJfromColorado

(Sigh) The last text I got from Roy was yesterday at his lunch break.  I have o idea if he is okay.  We did not do prayer last night and I am hoping he just fell asleep.  But dang it, I need to...

So...the fam and I went to a near by town and a near by swimming  hole.  The ride up, and back was horrible.  The now 14 year old from hell wouldn't stop going off on me, nor his 6 year old sister...

So I decided to try and see what would happen if I took all three kids, my second cousins, on a canoe trip. Friday we had a blow out on the way up there. Friday Aaron wouldn’t go to bed till about...

I am so pissed right now.  J did not pick up the med refil for Roy, 15 yr old boy. He called it in last thursday.  We were suppose to have a canoe trip this past weekend, but it got cancled due to...

 I started having a sore throat Thursday.  I thought Ah Ha, I know what it is, I can treat it myself.  Friday still not too bad, Friday night ah crap.  Had to cancel a canoe trip with the guys...

Still dealing with allergies, but as if if that wasn't enough everything is changing, my schedule, the young ones are out of school, new work schedule, new house...everything.  My anxiety is through...

Was at the doc on Friday, going back tomorrow for follow up and maybe blood work and CT scan.  On six meds, he thinks allergies, I don't know.  Life is really weighing me down right now.

I am now scared.  Saturday suicide popped into my head and I shook it right out-it made me very uncomfortable.  Today, with the added stress of money and responsibilitie....the word crept into my...

Saturday night, after a great day at Sea World with the fam, I came home and as I was going to bed I was stressing/dreading all that lay before me, with no answers or solutions in sight.  Then my...

Today has brought me too close to thinking about suicide.  Work is getting worse, I want out.  I can't take people taking advantage of me anymore.  And i don't know how to stop it.  I hate living...

Feeling kind of blue...Roy is Florida for the week.  I already miss him.

Roy is home sick, I feel so bad for him when he is sick and he told me before the family did, they still don't trust me I guess.  Oh well, he knows I love him.  But my heart still aches for him

Tonight was better.  More relaxed.  I wish Roy would play games with me though.  He was really upset about something tonight.

What do you do, when you are a vital part of a family’s infrastructure, yet the two queens who try to run the whole thing treat you as a teenager and won’t have open dialogue with you?  What do...

I have been staying with my aunt for a couple of months.  Since a recent road trip she and my cousin have been treating me like a teenager, I am 30.  They spent today together and talked about a...