DJfromColorado

Today has brought me too close to thinking about suicide.  Work is getting worse, I want out.  I can't take people taking advantage of me anymore.  And i don't know how to stop it.  I hate living...

Feeling kind of blue...Roy is Florida for the week.  I already miss him.

Roy is home sick, I feel so bad for him when he is sick and he told me before the family did, they still don't trust me I guess.  Oh well, he knows I love him.  But my heart still aches for him

Tonight was better.  More relaxed.  I wish Roy would play games with me though.  He was really upset about something tonight.

What do you do, when you are a vital part of a family’s infrastructure, yet the two queens who try to run the whole thing treat you as a teenager and won’t have open dialogue with you?  What do...

I have been staying with my aunt for a couple of months.  Since a recent road trip she and my cousin have been treating me like a teenager, I am 30.  They spent today together and talked about a...

What a weekend! My mother came for a visit, and when we all went out for dinner like I requested the jackass invited himself and we had dinner with J's husband-the one who beats up children.

Things aren't any better, but there is hope now.  Roy has graduated the eigth grade last week.  I am trying to get him a job, if Jennifer wills it.  I have hired an actor to hire him through my...

I am having so much trouble taking care of what needs doing.  This fighting has worn me out.  I wanted to write something since it has been two months.  I can no longer see the kids due to an...

Roy no longer wants to live at home, his mother told him to move in with me yesterday.  Today she called the police to have him taken back.  There is a lot of confusion and I no longer know what to...

My aunt, whom I am currently living with, came into my room at 9 p.m. Tuesday night and told me she had forgotten about one of Aaron’s appointments and had to open.  She did not come out and ask,...

Roy watched Spiderwick Chronicles again, the movie where he started showing signs of being ill, last night.  His memory is scrambled again.  Will post more latter.

The boys, and Michelle went midnight bowling Friday night into Saturday and we HAD A BLAST!!  I did have some trouble with Aaron, ended up calling 911 and their was a cop in the bowling alley that...

Okay so here I am…starting my work day and I don’t really want to be here.  It has been a crazy week with the family.  Had both boys Saturday; my uncle told their mom that either I had to move...

I think the whole money thing has me down...I don't know.  I just don't like life right now.  Feeling icky.  Not sure exactly what it is.  Kids spent the night at the house last night, really...