Bad thoughts
Saturday night, after a great day at Sea World with the fam, I came home and as I was going to bed I was stressing/dreading all that lay before me, with no answers or solutions in sight. Then my mind had one, a great one, a solution to solve everything-kill myself. Well as you can see I didn't listen to it, I was able to get my mind back on track, but it scared me. I have been more carefull with taking my anxiety med, and i really need to get things worked out on the health insurance. I am okay every one, I am not wanting to committ suicide, but that thought really scared me so I wanted to share with people who understand.
I wish they had a face between "bad" and "ok" for I am neither.
I wish they had a face between "bad" and "ok" for I am neither.
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Sadly you are not alone in your thoughts, a very dear friend of mine just last week told me she was about to, wrote everyone a letter including me. Thank GOD she is still here. DJ, my grandfather was the special man in my life, rode horses with him, hung out with him on weekends, one wkend I was suppose to go, I got a phone call from my aunt that he was gone. He took his own life. I knew as a child he suffered, I am now 46 yrs. old I remember that day like it was yesterday, I miss him and wonder how different life would have been had he stuck it out. I am praying for you to have healthy, happy thoughts and peace within. We all are stressed and there is no quick easy answer. Life is just hard and sucks sometimes... it will pass. Be well my friend. You are in others thoughts and prayers.