soulnpain

Hard day today already, i just want to sit and cry.  Jakes death is not what is holding me back its the effects that his death had on my body.  I am tired of fighting those things.  I know where...

What has been going on since i last was on here is alot of stuff.. i had major stomach problems ears problems and struggled with fear and guilt in other words i wanted to die even tho i serve a big...

I am writing again,i have avoided this site because i have went through so much guilt about my sons death and i felt like i needed to do it on my own but guess what you can't so here i am all messed...

I just wanted to drop by and let you know i am still alive.  It is so crazy lately.  We have joined a new church and are so busy and then istarted working parttime and where i work does not have a...

I had an awesome time at the retreat and i met so many different wonderful people there and i cannot wait to meet even more of you all next year.  I am so glad i went, it was a blessing and...

Another day in paradise.. I am a wee bit better but i have the pink eye and my daughter does too.  We have four tickets to the diamondback/dodgers game today and i am feeling like sleeping.  I hope...

Well i have not heard anything yet.  They said it will probably be next week before they hear anything.  I feel so exhausted lately and i am so angry inside all the time.  I am stuck 14 miles from...

Well, we talked with my father in law last night and he seems to be feeling a wee bit better.  He is going to get an MRI on Tuesday to see if the cancer has spread because his back is in so much...

Ok, i heard from my in laws and they have started him on hormone shots today.  They are going to give him an MRI to see if it has spread to his back and if it has that is a really bad thing.  He is...

Well my father-in-laws birthday was lastnight and we called him and he found out a few days ago that he has cancer and is already on chemo and morphine.  He hasn't found out how far he is until...

Just another day in paradise lol.  Well, it is Sunday morning and i am getting ready for church.  It is lonely around here now that my daughter turned 18 she is gone staying with friends now...

I put a heading that is funny but in a way it is not.  I was doing laundry today and i went to hang it out, (since i live in the phoenix area it dryes faster than the dryer) i stepped over a...

I am so upset with life right now, for today is the same as yesterday and i am not looking forward to tomorrow.  I know my son is gone and more than a yr now but other things have happened since...

The breaking news is that i am still alive and one yr later trying to figure out how to live again.  I would love to talk to anyone that would love to communicate.  I had to break away for awhile...

Today was an emmotional day and a bittersweet one at that.  I started out very angry and then i got a call from Jake's yearbook teacher and Jake won two awards for photography.  He placed 2nd in...