Ok, i heard from my in laws and they have started him on hormone shots today. They are going to give him an MRI to see if it has spread to his back and if it has that is a really bad thing. He is already using a scooter to get around and i saw him just months ago and he was getting around very well. He is going down hill fast. On the other hand today i was angry because Jake is gone, i just don't understand this at all. I just want to shoot myself most of the time but don't have the energy to do it. I hope for a better tomorrow. Dawn
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There is so much anxiety right now for you...you are like a sponge soaking it up...it is hard not to...I do the same. Just be gentle with yourself. That make take you forcing yourself to take a break, a relaxing bath, a steamy shower, a walk...whatever it takes to make you feel better...coming here and talking to us through your journal is a good thing...I always feel better when I can even write how I feel down...later I review it and it helps me sort through things.
Take care...know that we care and even feel as defeated sometimes ourselves...
On another note, I cannot wait to meet you in San Diego and give you a real hug.
Ann
Sorry you have so much on your mind. Hoping your father-in-law is ok. Sometimes life throws too much at us all at once. I hope for a better tomorrow for you too. Hugs & Love
Please be gentle on yourself - you have way to much on your plate right now...I am sending good vibes & a few extra prayers your way...Hang in there...Come here & vent all you want - that is what we are here for...Hugs, Ann
Please take time to feel what you feel and honor your feelings and your right to have them. It seems it never rains but it pours in people\'s lives. Be kind to yourself and may tomorrow bring some calm and peace for you. Love and hugs Cathy