Shlay
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- Everything is going well so far. I've been there a week today. I'm back at my mom's today to use the computer and to see my boyfriend for a bit, since he lives close. It was scary at first, all those 9 other people; not knowing what to expect. I...
- Yup. I got a call from my case manager a few days ago telling me I am moving on Monday into emergency housing services. I'm so scared. This is me on my own. This is the point of no return.I was feeling scared but awesome about it until I spoke with...
- Saw the ex. Had a great time. We kissed. I THOUGHT I WAS GAY.Guess I still had feelings for him. I feel guilty and wrong and hurt and scared and confused. Why is life so confusing?
- First I break up with an asshole guy, think I'm done with guys.THEN I go see that same guy and he seems like he's changed and I still have feelings for him. We even fooled around.Maybe I am bi but conditioned otherwise. Maybe I'm bi and just scared...
- Oh yeah. Everyone knows on here that I just broke up with a boy and realized I'm gay. Well, I just started hanging out with the ex again... And still have sexual feelings for him. Nothing more than friendship in other aspects... But the desire is...
- I'm so sick of her back and forth. She tries to do stuff and then says her brain is bleeding then wont go to the doctor and then (i guess) falls and collapses when I try to help her onto her bed.My sister is being a selfish cunt about it because my...
- Going to see my ex boyfriend tonight. I broke up with him because he was a jerk... But he says hes getting better because he's on medication now. Gah. Third times a charm maybe? I just can't not give him another chance... I feel too bad. Because the...
- Tell me your stories.
- Does anyone else have the problem with no being able to feel love, friendship or in general caring?I can feel grateful, but the rest is lost on me. I never used to be this way. It's scaring this crap out of me. I want to feel it so bad. I just...
- A day like today I feel alive, as if Iâve never been in my own body before. As if I truly see myself for the first time, good and bad.As if I am a valid human being.A day like today is eye opening.It made me feel compassion and heart ache.It...
- Okay mom, I get it, I'm in a kinda pissy mood. DO NOT tell me to go take a klonopin. GAHALSOASNJFGJNASFKJNSAFMother f-er. I hate when she does that. Her: "You coming with us?"Me: "Yeah."Her: "Did you take your klonopin, or whatever you're on."Me:...
- I used my meds just how I was supposed to. Less even. I went for a long walk today so I ended up taking 3 of the 4 percocets that I am allowed. And only needed one anxiety pill when I can take 2.5. Am I allowed to give myself some kudo points?
- Saw the doctor after getting off some of my anxiety meds. The sleepiness levels have gone down so much since the change but I still feel so tired, though not passing out. He can't give me any meds for it because I am bi-polar. He has to give my...
- I am that blade of grass that whence upon touched your lips.In that pasture so green, air light with the fresh blooms of spring. The one you played in as a child. Fresh with wonders unbound. The wind upon your back is a reminder of me, for you to...
- I've been through hell since I was 14 with this. Well, MAINLY this. I am just now admitting to myself that I need support if I am ever going to stop for good. At the moment I get prescribed percocet for pain and klonopin for anxiety. They are both...