Shlay
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- The sky was alight with the setting of the sun and the bright orange glow of the rising moon. I was on a girl scout field trip. Off to the pumpkin patch we went. Driving right into that burning moon. Sitting in the back seat of that car, I was drawn...
- When a leaf falls, floods of memories flow with it.The mystical way the wind blows that little leaf opens my eyes to a new scene of the world.As I watch that lite fragment of peace descend, I know a season of my life is over.It is not a feeling of...
- Yup. And for one I was feeling "normal," happy, even. Now I've crashed so hard again. I was feeling good and even for the first time in years and now its gone. I knew it wouldn't last long. I'm trying to pull myself out of it. Like tomorrow, I'm...
- I wonder why I keep all of these things within my head. Horrible things, things filled with dread. I wonder why I keep things locked in my mind. No way to set them free; I become blind. Sometimes I try with all my might to just be okay, just be...
- I've never been diagnosed with narcolepsy but I do have sleep paralysis. It comes and goes. The first bout was last month, it was HORRIBLE! Now its back again. I'm so scared to go to sleep. I can't use my cpap machine because it makes the nightmares...
- It seems that the closer I get to someone, the more I push them away. Friend ships and loves. The line between being too abrasive or totally distant is so fine for me. I've always been this way. I give every moment of my attention to one person at...
- Anyone know anything about them? I'm super scared right now because I guess my blood thinner levels are low... I don't want to die!!!Gah.I'm so freaking out right now.
- Last night me and my boyfriend got in a bad fight. He hurt my feelings so bad I threw a tv changer. He spent the night anyway. I wrote him a myspace message while he was asleep, for him to read when he got home. It was a non hurtful letter telling...
- Five hours ago I cried. Inside my own home I let my heart be torn. The jagged edges of broken hope tore into my heart. As I sat there, broken and used, I knew I could not put a stop to it again. I wondered why I keep allowing myself to be used and...
- Five hours ago I cried. Inside my own home I let my heart be torn. The jagged edges of broken hope tore into my heart. As I sat there, broken and used, I knew I could not put a stop to it again. I wondered why I keep allowing myself to be used and...
- Two weekends ago my boyfriends aunt said some pretty harsh things to me about the help I get from the state due to my illness. Ever since then I've been falling deeper and deeper into depression. I cant snap myself out of it.Now my boyfriend has...
- Pain finally under control- for the time being. 50 mg fentnayl patch changed twice a day, 10mg of percocet 3 times a day and flexoral to sleep at night. Also, my psych doc put me on 25-50mg of trazadone so I don't have crappy nightmares as I'm...
- I ran today catch the bus and I can bearly walk now. I'm almost in tears. Wish me luck everyone.
- I did nearly nothing except go to a stupid pain doc. I did nothing and my body is still killing me. I'm just sick of being in pain for no good reason. Anyone else with me?
- 50mg patch but it doesn't take all the pain away. I just really need to get my knee fixed! It helps the huge bruises I have from the blood thinner shots I was on. No joke, I have an about if not a full foot bruise on my stomach. It's horrible. If...