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- Well It's officially a new year & that means starting my first year in 31 years without my hubby & I'm feeling very scared & alone, scared of facing this year without him & worrying about all the things that lie ahead of me this year that I will...
- I didn't sleep a wink last sleep, my insomnia was at an all time high last night!, I'm not feeling good today, it's been raining & gloomy all day, my daughter left early this morning to spend the day with some friends from out of town & won't be...
- well here in California it's officially Christmas eve day & Im really missing my husband sooo much tonite because we were always up early on Christmas eve day heading out to get those last minute gifts, I always purposely left a few gifts to be...
- Tonight as my daughter was out for the evening I decided this would be a good time to wrap some of her gifts but as I started taking things out of the bags I became very overwhelmed with sadness because even though my husband didn't participate in...
- My husbands been gone a little over a mo. now & today I had a dentist appt. with a new dentist & of course had to fill out new patient paperwork & when I got to the marital status line I stared at it for a few minutes wanting so badly to check the...
- 1 mo ago today I lost my husband, best friend & love of my life, it seems like its been 1 year instead of 1mo! time for me seems to be standing still but the world around me is going on, I hate to go to stores right now& see people (couples)...
- Well today my daughter & I made the dreaded trip to the mortuary to pick up my husbands remains, Ive been dreading this day since he passed but I knew we had to do it, we had made the decision to keep him at home because thats what my husband really...
- I realize its only been 3 weeks since my husband passed but right now I feel like how can I possibly do life without him? I feel like my heart has been ripped in a million pieces & will never be whole again. How do I ever go to any of our favorite...
- Wow this really scared me today, I went to the store to pick up a few things I needed & out of nowhere I just felt this overwhelming urge to cry, almost uncontrollable! & then I started feeling panicky because I didnt want to have a meltdown in the...
- Here I am again at midnight wide awake with the tv & bedside light on & will more than likely leave them on all night or end up on the couch with the tv on, I dread bedtime these days because thats when the sadness & lonliness seems to be at its...
- Well its been 2 weeks today that my husband passed, I survived yesterday (Thanksgiving) I forced myself to go to the family dinner only because my mother is 83 with dimentia so I dont know how many more holidays I have left with her but it was a...
- On Nov 9th I lost my wonderful husband of 28yrs after a long 2yr battle with cancer, Im so glad hes in a better place & not suffering anymore but I miss him so much I wonder how I will be able to live life without him, he was my best friend & we did...
- Some of you that have been on this site for awhile may or may not remember me, my husband was dx with esophageal cancer in june of 2010 & had the surgery in feb of 2011 after 6 rounds of chemo, he was cancer free for a yr & unfortunetly his 12mo...
- You all probably know my wife Kim but i've decided to join the community as well using her account,my name is Ruben & i'll identify myself when i make an entry or respond.My initial diagnosis was July of 2010,i had 4 rounds of chemo & cryotherapy...
- Hi everone thanks for the kind words & prayers, they were unable to start my husbands chemo on Tues because the oncologist wants him to have a heart scan first which they can't do until next week, one of the drugs they want to give him is said to be...