Odie...
I feel so empty... So angry... Angry at myself, angry at God, angry at the people who owned the stupid dogs who mauled my dog, Odie. Odie... My best friend. Odie... who I'll never see ever again. I'll never hear his bark, never touch his fur, never feel his cold tongue ever again.
I want to yell, scream, cry, beat down everything from here to who knows where. I want to beg for a do-over. I have begged for a do-over. To close my eyes and be in a Groundhog Day moment. I want this all to be a nightmare that I can wake up from. But no matter how hard I plead, how many times I close my eyes, how much I wish everything remains the same. Odie is dead. My baby is dead!
God, the pain. Pure agony. Like someone took a jagged piece of glass and just started hacking at my heart, leaving this gaping hole that just wont be filled.
Everywhere I look I'm reminded of Odie, and it sparks a new hurt. Those beautiful brown eyes... I just can't get them out of my head. The way he last looked at me as if to say, "Please don't let me die, mum". God, I'm so sorry, Odie. I'm so so sorry. I'd give anything for another chance.
I still can't accept he's gone. I never thought I'd lose him. I thought the vet would fix him and to hell with how much it cost. It was so unexpected. He was so vibrant... like a puppy really with all that boundless energy. To think that a life so full of, well, life could be snuffed out. I can't accept that.
I want to shout at God, ask Him why He took my baby away. If He wanted to punish me He should have left Odie out of it. Odie was innocent. He didn't deserve this. It's not fair. Odie shouldn't have had to die. He was the best dog ever.
Damn it!
I want to yell, scream, cry, beat down everything from here to who knows where. I want to beg for a do-over. I have begged for a do-over. To close my eyes and be in a Groundhog Day moment. I want this all to be a nightmare that I can wake up from. But no matter how hard I plead, how many times I close my eyes, how much I wish everything remains the same. Odie is dead. My baby is dead!
God, the pain. Pure agony. Like someone took a jagged piece of glass and just started hacking at my heart, leaving this gaping hole that just wont be filled.
Everywhere I look I'm reminded of Odie, and it sparks a new hurt. Those beautiful brown eyes... I just can't get them out of my head. The way he last looked at me as if to say, "Please don't let me die, mum". God, I'm so sorry, Odie. I'm so so sorry. I'd give anything for another chance.
I still can't accept he's gone. I never thought I'd lose him. I thought the vet would fix him and to hell with how much it cost. It was so unexpected. He was so vibrant... like a puppy really with all that boundless energy. To think that a life so full of, well, life could be snuffed out. I can't accept that.
I want to shout at God, ask Him why He took my baby away. If He wanted to punish me He should have left Odie out of it. Odie was innocent. He didn't deserve this. It's not fair. Odie shouldn't have had to die. He was the best dog ever.
Damn it!
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Very sorry for your loss. I just recently lost my best friend in the world, my 12.5 year old Beagle, Arnold. He\'s been through so much with me and I with him over those years and it was horrible to see him go. He had a really bad bout of cancer, and was in some serious pain, so we made the decision to have our veterinarian put him down.
By that time he was no longer the happy go lucky dog he used to be. It was still one of the very saddest moments for me and my family to let him go. Seeing the life whisked from him just about killed me. To think that I\'ll never have my buddy Arnie with me again is still hard to believe.
I guess the best you can do is remember him and think about all the great times you\'ve had together. It sounds like Odie had a great friend in you and I\'m sure he\'s in a far better place now (maybe with Arnie :) waiting for you to one day join him.
Hoping this might make you feel a little bit better: http://www.petloss.com/rainbowbridge.htm
I\'m so sorry that happened. A couple months ago the same thing happened to my little dog, Gracie.