Ravenck
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- its been over a year and so much has changed. Going through a divorce it’s almost finalized. Found a wonderful man who I love and my mom has passed away and fighting my narc step father for money that my mother has left me and being assaulted by...
- Well its done. My lawyer sent my ex a email going no contact. And the battle has started him blocking all my family. Its sad really 20 years going down like this but I realise that I wont be bulliedand threaten anymore. I will not do what he wants...
- Its been two months since the separation and im severally depressed. Today i just laid in bed and cried. Everything felt daunting and overwhelming. When do you start to feel better? Im in counselling, i read all the self help books, I try to do...
- So its the mine and my soon to be ex Anniversary. This week was a hard week, lost of friend and then dealing with the first of many as a soon to be divoriced woman. Remembering how excited I was when I got married, that day was perfect in every way....
- So i lost a friendship yesterday. She wanted me to be there for her and constantly calling me selfish because im so wrapped up in my drama and self loathing. I know im being selfish right now, i know im still reeling from everything that has...
- This was the weekend we were suppose to go to Vienna. We made so many plans for trips together. Not just months but years of plans. Its hard to comprehend that that part of my life is over. I miss his voice and the silly things we use to do. But I...
- This past week hasnt been all bad. I started looking for an apartment and getting my stuff ready for the lawyer. It is not how I imgine my life at 36 but you got to go with it. Im angry at my ex and hurt. But I know that he will never admit to...
- So I tried one more time to fix my marriage. I guess you can say I was naive to believe that our "love" that we once had could be worked on. That the promises that we both made could be fixed. But he had it perfectly clear that he doesnt want nor...
- So today is not a good day. Actually the last week hasnt been very good. I know it will take time and that it wont be easy, but I hate this feeling the Anadonment, of heartbreak. Our anniversary is coming up and it will be the last one. I remember...
- Thinking back from the start of my marriage i realised that i was subjected to verbal abuse from the beginning. It effected every aspect of my life, my confidence, self respect, self worth and even my thoughts on sex. Ive never felt worthy of my...
- I accidently saw a picture of my soon to be ex on facebook doing a trip that we planned together and I thought I would be more upset then I was. I thought I would sob in despair and wish I was there with him. I stared at the picture and it was...
- I have been thinking back to the past 10 years and i finally realise that my husband has been verbally abusing me the entire time. Putting me down, the yelling and throwing things, feeling like i never measured up no matter what I did. I spoke to...
- On facebook i put that i was completely shattered and that i would never be the same. One of mine and my husband friends messaged me to see if i was okay. She was shocked to learn that I was living with my parents and myself and my husband were...
- I had a dream that my husband and I got back together and when I woke up my heart was pounding and I wasnt feeling happy about it. I know I have issues but my husband will never admit his issues because he thinks he is perfect. The falling apart of...
- Back to full time work and having to.admit my "old life" is over. Its hard to jump in after a hard blow. My self worth and how i feel about myself is in the tubes and the thought of the future is a struggle. The one thing im looking forward too is...