Feeling my age etc. Its a downer day today.
I am feeling my age, weight etc. Its a downer day today. Who wants to be with a 55 years old woman anyways? All the guys my age or older all want young hot women. Its so hard to meet someone. I tried the online free dating service and it seems like such a meat market. It is hard to go through all the profiles. My friend Carol loves it and it suits her so much. She is like a kid in the candy store. I am different.
Its a negative day like:
1. Who wants to be with a 55 year old unemployed single woman?
2. Who wants to hire a 55 year old unemployed woman?
3. Who wants me?
Its okay. I will get over it. I will be like my old self again. There are some days where it all sits on your shoulders and the next day you blow it off with a puff of air.
I was having a lot of hot flashes since the beginning of the year. Now the hot flashes are gone. I am experiencing a lot of emotions. I can cry at a drop of the hat on some days. Today I just stayed home. I did not feel like going out but it probably would have been the best for me if I went for a walk or something.
I am dating Dave but don't think it is a long term relationship. I am registered on two free online dating services. I always keep my eyes open to the possibilities. One never knows that is for sure. I am tired of Dave's routine along with his room mate Rob and his female friend Alla. I am just becoming tired of it all.
On the bright side, I get to babysit my grandson Tyson tomorrow. I look forward to it greatly. Next week Lisa and Grant are going to Las Vegas to help celebrate Grant's friend's wedding. I will be staying at their place Wed-Friday. Yahoo!
My brother Don has started a paper route. If he does good, they might give him another route. If this is the case, I can help him with both of us making some money. Its an honest job that is for sure. My backup is if Lisa gets a 2nd job, they will hire me full-time to look after Tyson. I can sure use the money. Its an honest job as well. I keep getting my resumes out on a regular basis so it is not me trying that is for sure.
Yesterday I took my digital camera into Black's and got some pictures printed out. It did not cost that much and I love having the hard copy of pictures that I treasure. I had five of Tyson, two of Dave, one of me, and two of my long time friend Wendy. I already put them in my photo album and printed out labels for them. I treasure my photo albums. I look through them every so often. For my mom, dad and Smokey, I created albums that are labelled "Tribute to my mom", "Tribute to my dad" and "Tribute to Smokey."
I am wishing you all the best. Let me know if you go through these horrible thoughts as well and how do you cope with them? from Diane B.
Its a negative day like:
1. Who wants to be with a 55 year old unemployed single woman?
2. Who wants to hire a 55 year old unemployed woman?
3. Who wants me?
Its okay. I will get over it. I will be like my old self again. There are some days where it all sits on your shoulders and the next day you blow it off with a puff of air.
I was having a lot of hot flashes since the beginning of the year. Now the hot flashes are gone. I am experiencing a lot of emotions. I can cry at a drop of the hat on some days. Today I just stayed home. I did not feel like going out but it probably would have been the best for me if I went for a walk or something.
I am dating Dave but don't think it is a long term relationship. I am registered on two free online dating services. I always keep my eyes open to the possibilities. One never knows that is for sure. I am tired of Dave's routine along with his room mate Rob and his female friend Alla. I am just becoming tired of it all.
On the bright side, I get to babysit my grandson Tyson tomorrow. I look forward to it greatly. Next week Lisa and Grant are going to Las Vegas to help celebrate Grant's friend's wedding. I will be staying at their place Wed-Friday. Yahoo!
My brother Don has started a paper route. If he does good, they might give him another route. If this is the case, I can help him with both of us making some money. Its an honest job that is for sure. My backup is if Lisa gets a 2nd job, they will hire me full-time to look after Tyson. I can sure use the money. Its an honest job as well. I keep getting my resumes out on a regular basis so it is not me trying that is for sure.
Yesterday I took my digital camera into Black's and got some pictures printed out. It did not cost that much and I love having the hard copy of pictures that I treasure. I had five of Tyson, two of Dave, one of me, and two of my long time friend Wendy. I already put them in my photo album and printed out labels for them. I treasure my photo albums. I look through them every so often. For my mom, dad and Smokey, I created albums that are labelled "Tribute to my mom", "Tribute to my dad" and "Tribute to Smokey."
I am wishing you all the best. Let me know if you go through these horrible thoughts as well and how do you cope with them? from Diane B.
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