depressiontini

Figures.  Just when I'm getting ready to go back to work and already nervous about being able to handle it all, I am sick.  I'm not sure what kind of sick - hopefully it won't be too bad or last...

I got a call from work yesterday and as is my habit, I immediately dreaded having to return the call and immediately felt like I was in "trouble."  I get this sinking feeling in the pit of my...

But that could be because my fiance stayed home from work today to take me to my eye appointment - good thing he did since my eyes were so dilated I couldn't drive home or focus my eyes up close on...

So, after the initial change in meds has kicked in, and I am less prone to sitting around with the depressive playback tape on repeat, my mind is clearer to move on and do something.  Problem is,...

So today was probably worse in some ways than yesterday.  I didn't want to get up and then a few hours before therapy, I started getting really anxious about going to therapy.  I took an Atavan so...

So, I am feeling a bit bad about myself today.  I really didn't want to wake up.  Eventually I did, and made myself take my meds and have some cereal.  I think I brushed my teeth today.  I am...

I managed to shower all by myself and make it to my doctor today without having anxiety.  The doctor says he sees a visible change in me - that I have more facial expression now than when I started...

My fiance set my alarm for 10:30 this morning, we've been working toward getting me up earlier each day.  Yesterday, without the alarm, I woke up.  Today, I wanted to throw the alarm across the...

2:00 p.m. S: We still on for our walk at 4:30?2:01 p.m. Me: Ummm, I've been feeling anxious about leaving the house....2:05 p.m. S: That's ok, let's chat at 4. So then I watched the clock and...

So, my cousin asked me to drop by (only 6 blocks away) today.  She is working from home and we could have had lunch.  But I was anxious about running into L my cleaning lady and having to pretend...

So, a long time ago, my fiance and I decided it would probably be good for our relationship as well as our home, if we got a cleaning lady in twice a month to handle the major cleaning: kitchen and...

So I made it through today.  It didn't start out great, but I'm trying to learn how to give myself a break when things don't go the way I hope.  There's no point in carrying the guilt around on top...

My fiance stayed home (he can work from home) today - for moral support.  I have been feeling like I've been swinging back instead of forward.  There are some "real life" things I need to deal with...

It's much easier to function when there are people around you asking you to just join along.  That was much the case this weekend.  And when Sunday night hit with daylight savings cutting the day...

So, I switched down to 1/4 of the 150mg Nuvigil tablet this morning and can definitely feel the difference.  Of course, isolating what made the difference is hard for me to gauge.  Either because I...