AprilStar

A sharp blade Slicing through her skin Drawing a crimson line Bringing her closer   Again and again Cuts getting deeper Her desire to die Leading her nearer   Blood pooling around Her...

I don't know what to do anymore.  I'm so tired of all of this.  It seems like I've been here so long, in this dark hole, and there's no way out.  There never will be.  Will I be forced to live...

Met with my counselor today.  It was difficult, expecially getting myself to tell her that I don't think I can keep myself safe.  But I did.  I was scared she was going to send me to the hospital...

I feel like I'm just saying the same things over and over again, but how much longer can this go on?  How much more until I finally give in?  How much more do I have to endure?  I can't fight this...

Why am I still here?  Why have I not yet given in to death?  I want to, so badly, but something is stopping me and I don't know what it is.  I don't understand.  I'm just so tired of this all. ...

Another rough day.  Will there ever be any good?  It's just getting more and more hopeless.  Had an appointment with my counselor today.  That was difficult.  Why does getting help have to hurt...

Well, I'm just having a lovely week (or two)! (note the sarcasm)  We had some friends over on the weekend.  One was my roommate's sister, and she's gone through a lot in her life.  She has a...

The end of one long horrible week only to start all over again.  What's the point?  Why should I continue with a life like this?  I have so many papers and tests and assignments due for school...

It's only Monday and already this week seems unbearable.  I'm so confused.  I don't know what's happening to my life anymore.  I don't even know who I am.  My counselor thinks it's a possibility...

I'm so tired.  And confused.  I don't know what's happening anymore. 

Dark grey and cloudy skies Rain pouring down from on high Thunder booms loud with a crash Through darkness light cuts with a gash   My own heart is beating in tune My tears like the rain fast...

I got my marks back today for the mid-term I wrote 2 weeks ago.  This was the one I thought I did ok on when I wrote it.  I got 55%.  I can't believe it.  When I saw my mark I started having a...

I feel like I'm living in a fog.  I don't know where or who I am anymore.  I've lost myself, can't remember who I used to be.  I've become this shell of a person, you can hardly call it living. ...

I have to write a midterm tomorrow, and I have done absolutely NO studying for it.  I just can't get myself to study, and it's really making me anxious.  I can't concentrate at all, have no clue...

I can't handle this.  How am I going to get through 4 more years of school?  I'm ready to shoot myself already just so I won't have to write this paper.  Or write the mid term, or do the...