Why am I still here?  Why have I not yet given in to death?  I want to, so badly, but something is stopping me and I don't know what it is.  I don't understand.  I'm just so tired of this all.  I can't fight these thoughts anymore.  Why can't I just die?  Maybe soon.  Maybe whatever is stopping me will go away and leave me to die in peace.  I just want it all to be over.  I can't do this anymore.  I want out.  Please . . .

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Your still here because you deserve to live, Have you got a counsellor or a friend close if you feel close to suicidal i would phone Samaritan or 911 so sorry that you have these thoughts maybe see someone who can help with techniques to help you control the thoughts.

Big Hugs
AprilStar
AprilStar

I have a counselor, but she\'s gone for 2 weeks for Christmas. And I don\'t know, I don\'t feel like I deserve to live right now.
deleted_user
deleted_user

You deserve to live because you were born. The feelings you are having right now are likely due to depression. I assure you that you can go on. Please do not give up. There are resources out there for you. Here is a list that might help you:
http://www.stopstressingnow.com/resources/
I would call: 1-800-784-2433 it\'s the national suicide hotline and talk to someone about what is going on... they helped me, they will help you. FREE.