AprilStar

Why am I still here?  Why have I not yet given in to death?  I want to, so badly, but something is stopping me and I don't know what it is.  I don't understand.  I'm just so tired of this all. ...

Another rough day.  Will there ever be any good?  It's just getting more and more hopeless.  Had an appointment with my counselor today.  That was difficult.  Why does getting help have to hurt...

Well, I'm just having a lovely week (or two)! (note the sarcasm)  We had some friends over on the weekend.  One was my roommate's sister, and she's gone through a lot in her life.  She has a...

The end of one long horrible week only to start all over again.  What's the point?  Why should I continue with a life like this?  I have so many papers and tests and assignments due for school...

It's only Monday and already this week seems unbearable.  I'm so confused.  I don't know what's happening to my life anymore.  I don't even know who I am.  My counselor thinks it's a possibility...

I'm so tired.  And confused.  I don't know what's happening anymore. 

Dark grey and cloudy skies Rain pouring down from on high Thunder booms loud with a crash Through darkness light cuts with a gash   My own heart is beating in tune My tears like the rain fast...

I got my marks back today for the mid-term I wrote 2 weeks ago.  This was the one I thought I did ok on when I wrote it.  I got 55%.  I can't believe it.  When I saw my mark I started having a...

I feel like I'm living in a fog.  I don't know where or who I am anymore.  I've lost myself, can't remember who I used to be.  I've become this shell of a person, you can hardly call it living. ...

I have to write a midterm tomorrow, and I have done absolutely NO studying for it.  I just can't get myself to study, and it's really making me anxious.  I can't concentrate at all, have no clue...

I can't handle this.  How am I going to get through 4 more years of school?  I'm ready to shoot myself already just so I won't have to write this paper.  Or write the mid term, or do the...

Ugh, school is too stressful.  I have a paper due, a mid term, and a presentation this week.  Not that that's a whole lot for most people, but I don't feel like I can handle it and I think I'm...

Wow, I've been busy lately.  But all this writing papers and studying and such is getting me so stressed . . . how do people survive this normally?  Had to go to my parents for Thanksgiving this...

So my counselor ended up sending me to the hospital on Friday afternoon (which was kind of a mutual agreement between the two of us), and I just got out this morning (Tuesday).  I kind of told her I...

I'm dying inside and I don't know how to stop it.  My mind has quit and my heart is cold.  There is no hope for me.  The only thoughts I have are death and pain.  I can't see a way out from this...