Hurrah! Hurrah! Going to have your hair pampered is a wonderful feeling! That massage is awesome!

You're going to make it through the challenges! You're working through the tough moments with a move forward, awesome!

I agree, the numbers, not so much, however, they're a detail to help, and you're meeting the ultimate goal, your self, your well-being!

Sounds like you're doing great!

Thank you Stroodleblooms, mid, and manda :)

Yeah I'm doing ok. 2's the last two days.

(awesome.)

Blarg, procrastination + time on computer + financial stuff + speaking to service providers = A rating of 4 for today. It's early evening now. I should be ok from now on. I had bandaids on too. They're only a barrier when you're committed.

You will bounce back from your 4. : ) Financial stuff is the worst!

I love that "oh shit hands down" reaction.... You are doing great Sam!

Glad to hear that you had a nice day in the city. Seeing art exhibitions sounds like so much fun!! That's also one of my favorite things to do.

You're doing great, I know you've got this!

Sometimes, those barriers give us just enough pause to stand strong, especially coping with financial stuff and service providers (two major triggers for me with stress sores...).

Take care of yourself!

Thanks booyah! :)

Thanks mid, you're right. Thanks :)

A 4 for today. Just had a very long meeting with some family including my grandpa about him having to go into care. That's where I did my pulling. It went ok, considering.

I dried my hair naturally today and it's so curly. Fun :) Looks pretty good!

Ack, I've been pulling all day and night. So AGITATED. Pms plus a little anxiety. I want to shave my hair off. And peel off my skin and flesh suit and run (as a skeleton) screaming down the street. Do you ever have those days, anyone?

So it's an 8 for today. Highest score yet.

I'll just keep trying. Might start off my day (tomorrow) with a vigorous shampoo and a blow dry.

Yup, definitely have had those days before. I don't think they often come too close together, though. You'll bounce back!

No, thankfully they don't for me either. Thanks Manda :)

Did really well all day until about 3pm when I subconsciously pulled about 6 hairs (minutes apart). I wonder if it's because I had some sugar 1-2 hrs previously.. I tried to stay away from sugar today but I wasn't strong enough, ha.

"I want to shave my hair off. And peel off my skin and flesh suit and run (as a skeleton) screaming down the street. Do you ever have those days, anyone?" Boy oh boy do I know this feeling!! With the additional feeling of wanting to scoop my brain out and put it in the blender, mix it up then pour it back into my skull with the vague hope that this will STOP the anxious negative thought patterns and make me a brand new person!!! I felt this way Tuesday after I forced myself to examine my hair in the mirror and realized I'd pulled out so much regrowth.... BOOOO.

Remember what Claudia Miles says, the bad days are inevitable, it is about having more good days than bad days over time....

Just 6 hairs today is awesome! I am sure that 8 on the calendar will just be an anomaly, as you continue to commit to your recovery. I'm also not surprised that you had a day of intense pulling after dealing with that family stuff. It is stressful dealing with that whole issue of aged grandparents and who is responsible for taking care of them! : ( Hugs to you.

Ah, the old "brain in a blender" urge. Uh huh, yep I know that one too.

I'm doing my best to focus on the good days.

Ugh unfortunately last night just before bed I pulled a bunch. Hormones + upsetting issue. And I pulled right in the "no no" zone. By that of course, I mean the tender part of my scalp covered in thinning re- growth. So I think maybe a 5 for yesterday. Better than an 8 though! It's frustrating as until about 3pm it was a zero, then until 9pm it was a 3. But never mind, breathe, it's fine.

So many of my recent pulling binges have been like that....late at night after a good day. So frustrating! Keep focusing on the good days!