WhatLife

Yesterday night I was reading about alternative depression treatments and one was EMRD (something to do with eye movement therapy).  I got really scared because I was thinking that if the meds don't...

I am deeply saddedend by my dad's reaction to me this morning.  I asked him to lower the tv and he was complaining about life and how disgusting it is and he is fed up of this life... as if saying...

I was just out getting some stuff where I saw a guy who was really distraught.  He started calling me so I stopped and turned around and he was having some kind of mental reaction or a neurological...

My mood just became worse.  It feels like it has gone so bad but actually it isn't that bad.  But it is bad.I was out with my sister to a job fair and I saw one of the students that I used to...

I am feeling alright.  I woke up early, around 9:20.  It is early for me as I used to wake up at 11 or so.  But now it was ok.  I am sleeping better. I am still on 100 mg Seroquel but I need to...

Today isn't a bad day.  I am up to 100 mg on the Seroquel and it seems that it is making its effect.  I feel so light today and a little buzzed and I feel very relaxed.  I don't think it would be...

Why are we alive?  I have no idea.  Today again my dad completely closed all the doors for my sister.  He is the ultimate decider.  He decides everything because he has the money.  That is...

I will put in this journal the quotations that I see here from the DS team and other quotations that have an impact on me.----------------------------The Sun, with all the planets revolving around...

I am so frustrated and scared about my financial situation.  It is putting me in a very difficult situation and I am worried about it.  The problem is that in the third world country I am residing...

I feel tired and sad.  I don't know what to do so I came on DS to write a little maybe it will be therapeutic.  I am having problems with sleep.  I don't sleep well.  I have nightmares and when I...

Not very strong and not very fresh.  I have no goal in feeling better.  Do I need a goal.  I don't know.  Tired of all the thoughts of death and it is making me tired.  I want to feel ok with...

I am having a slow start of the day.  Over slept.  I don't know why.  I had a big meal yesterday night.  It might have pulled down my mood. I am up and running again.  My mood is stable.  I am...

I feel so depressed it is unbelievable.  Although I am not sure if I want to change my status from Bad to Horrible.  I can see my depression and it is not running my life.  Although I have a heart...

Boy o boy was that a roller coaster ride or what today.  I was in the theater watching When in Rome and I was seeing how beautiful Rome is and was thinking that maybe one day I will see it, then a...

My clothes are small for me.  I am adding on weight.  It is good if I buy new clothes. Money matters! Thinking bad thoughts.