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I am feeling very lonely and very nostalgic from the suicidal ideations that I have.  It is so difficult to have them and try to lead a normal life. 

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I am very worried about it.  My family physician is great but I get worried that she won't understand my emergency situation and get personal and turn me...

I talked today to dad.  He told me that he was going to call me today.  Before we started i thanked him for remembering to talk to me today as he had promised last week.  As it happens he actually...

I am not sure what to do with this goal.  I know now that this goal is not achievable as I have gotten worse.  I was reading about setting goals and it said that it is better to concentrate on the...

Talked to dad and had a couple of good belly laughs with him.  It was good.

I sent dad an email just to connect with him.

Due to my weird weekend I am not sure if this goal is still sustainable.  Maybe it is good to have another goal with my new mood level.  I am not sure.  For sure the progess that I gained went...

I had too much to drink and I am feeling horrible.  I went out to have a great birthday for my friend and it ended up being a flop.  I wanted to drink only because I was feeling happy but I don't...

I contacted my family doctor to refer me to community programs to help me out with my suicidal ideations and depression.  It is an important step that I took.

Sitting with a friend of mine and listening to music.  Que Sera Sera what ever will be will be. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

Yesterday I heard of someone who is suicidal and felt bad for them.  Also I felt bad for myself too, since I am a bit suicidal as well.  I guess the cardinal rule is that everyone is different and...

Talked to my parents and it was a good talk.  I enjoyed talking to my mom.  My dad was talking to me about work and it was a little uncomfortable.

I had a good day today with a relative.  It was fun and full of good discussions.