Slow start of the day
I am having a slow start of the day. Over slept. I don't know why. I had a big meal yesterday night. It might have pulled down my mood. I am up and running again. My mood is stable. I am thinking to taking the risk and calling my friend to watch a soccer game. I don't know if I will have to courage or energy to do it. Maybe it would be good to do it. My mom is in a bad mood. I got a little distracted taht she is in this mood. I felt some sadness in me that she is sad. She was speaking in a baby voice, which I felt was concealing some hurt feelings she has. She just burst into laughter and maybe she is now feeling ok. I have been tired, feeling grounded by the weight of the problems that I have. I don't know if that is the right description of what I am feeling. I am exhausted. It is not easy. Maybe I will call my friend and we will go out. Still early to call him. I have to run an errand to get some stuff for my sister. No big deal. I feel like I want to buy a nice antique piece from a nice oriental place. Maybe it will lift up my mood. I heard shopping lifts one's mood. Maybe I will do it. Fuck money. Money always matters. AGHHHHHH.
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