As if I do not have enough stress now...
So, on top of all the crap I am having to put up with from my in laws, my sister in law, my stepdaughters -- my job was terminated. I am out of work. There are some who will say that G-d is "testing me". But I am sick and tired of being tested. I just want to have a nice, quiet, calm, uneventful and UNINTERESTING life. What is so wrong with that??? My head is hurting me, I have these little growths popping out all over on the back left side and they HURT. I am seeing my doctor in a couple of hours about this. Enough already! I have had enough!!! ugh, I can't write. I don't even have the right words and my head hurts.
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I hear you! This is not what we signed up for, is it? We expected things to be more or less like it was for our parents in terms of continuing jobs, predictible economy, etc. What kind of work did you do? Sure hope you will be able to find a new job without too much trouble. I have been out of work for over a year, and part of my problem is that I did a lot of typist and general clerical work which does even exist anymore (at least not in my area). It is no fun trying to \"re-invent\" yourself in middle age. You will hopefully feel better when you have had a chance to process the shock of the job loss. Know that I am thinking good thoughts for you.
Laura
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Update: I saw the doctor -- the\"growths\" are folliculitis. It was most likely brought on as a result of the humongous stress I am under. My stepdaughter came over last night and said to me \"You do not need this house. It is too big for you. Besides, you did not pay for it. My father did.\" What a chutzpah!! I want to SLAP her silly!! She has NO IDEA.
We picked this house out together. We chose this house because it had enough rooms so each girl could have her own BR!! We put the needs of the girls as a priority in buying this house!! I love my home. I do NOT want to sell it if I can help it. Furthermore, in past 9 years that I worked FT, if I did not help to pay ALL the bills along with my DH, then what did I do with all the money I earned? Does she REALLY think he could have paid the mortgage, the property taxes, the maintenance, the repairs, the capital improvements, the utilities, AND paid child support, tuition at a very expensive private school (ALL girls went ), Automotive related expenses, a cleaning woman, household expenses, food, commuting, taxes, medical, and for each girl to go to Israel for a year post HS, and for family vacations -- ALL that on his salary alone??? If I did not help pay for all that -- then where is all the money I earned? If I spent it, where are all the things I bought??? These kids make me so mad. And they were so cruel to their father while he was alive.
All I can regarding your step daughters, is it is a good thing you have a lawyer - you obviously really need one! I hope things will work out financially for you so that you can hang on to your house, or at least if you have to sell, it will be because you want to. Don\'t let them do any kind of guilt trip on you - these sound like a bunch of vultures circling around you. Regarding the \"growths\", did the doctor give you something for them? Hope today is a little bit better for you. Laurabp
Yes, the doctor gave me both antibiotic and pain meds. Tylenol#3 is my new \"best friend\". (Don\'t worry, I am not addicted, nor will I be, this has been my drug of choice for years and I have never gotten addicted to it. I take it only when I need to.)