My life SUCKS

I was just served with papers. N, my late husbands EX wife is suing me for everything. She wants me to give all the money I got as life insurance when my husband died (a paltry amount, less than half of what is owed on the house) to her daughters and she wants the value of the difference between that and the amount of life insurance my late husband was SUPPOSED to have left for his girls, which could only be gotten either through my paying it (which WHAT???) or by selling the house -- and there is not enough equity in the house anyway!   She also wants, if there is not enough money to reach the goal of the stated life insurance he was supposed to have left, that I pay that difference out of whatever I have or my own earnings.  I am TERRIFIED I am going to lose EVERYTHING I have.  I am so scared. . I cannot take this anymore. I hate this. I hate my life. I hate this.  My mom is in the hospital recovering from surgery for an ulcer and I feel like I am going to wind up there as well, but my whole stomach is going to be one big ulcer.  Further to that the stated date for a hearing is ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!  What a shitty year I am having. SHIT SHIT SHIT His kids are such shitheads, he ex is a shithead. I cannot believe how NASTY everyone is.  I feel like every day I wake up and more shit gets thrown at me. I want to sleep and never wake up.  UGHUGHUGHUGH