I really hate my life

I hate my life.  I hate what I have become.  I have become a hateful, spiteful, mean, nasty person. I am quick to anger, wholly frustrated, spewing venom against everyone. I have been cheated, cheated, cheated.  I lost my husband and that was not enough. I had to lose his parents, his siblings, his daughters.  His ex wife has been pursuing me with a vengeance. That sneaky horrible vindictive greedy bitch is hell bent on taking from me as much as she possibly can, meaning nearly EVERYTHING. I am homeless.  I am jobless.  I am widowed. I am disabled.  Meaningless shit.  All I dream about is hurting her. I want to watch her suffer.  I want her to suffer TERRIBLY for a VERY LONG TIME!!!